Why do my eyes hurt?

About a year ago a fellow traveller I met in Mexico gave me the book ‘Ismael, an adventure of the mind and spirit‘. A beautiful book that made a huge impact on me. It was the start of a new personal journey. At the age of thirty I was about to rediscover the world and look at it through a new pair of eyes and they started hurting. It was (and is) a journey where almost everything I believed was challenged, questioned and most of it swept away. It made me feel things I had never felt before in my life. There were times when I felt so sad, alone, powerless and disconnected from almost everybody that I love, I didn’t know what to do with it. The things I saw and discovered made my eyes hurt so much. Our disconnectedness with each other, with nature. Our definitions of success and security. Our separation and individualism. And above all our focus on money and material wealth. I could only see the rotting part of this ‘peak’ in our evolution and was unable to see any signals of hope whatsoever.

It turns out that the mantra I have been using over the last few years still stands: ‘we don’t see things as they are, we see them as we are’. I was surrounding myself with too much negative literature and other external influences. Too many negative movies. Too many negative conversations.  And all of this negativity this took it’s toll on me. It took me a while to turn all this negativity around and see the beauty again in things.

Fortunately the outcome of this journey is a very beautiful one. I believe there is hope and a better world will come. People are waking up all around me and I no longer feel alone, powerless or disconnected. In fact, I feel more connected, hopeful and empowered than I have ever felt. The amount of initiatives to grow humankind out of childhood and into adulthood is so big I can’t keep up with it. Initiatives like GEEFeconomieFreeskool and Gelukskunde in the Netherlands, Streetbank in the UK, the Gift Economy and the Moneyless Manifesto worldwide are so simple, anyone can relate to them. If you don’t know what I am talking about, please take a moment to watch this movie because it profoundly changed me and the way I see the world and made my eyes stop hurting and start filling them with fire once again:

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I am a Digital Nomad. Travelling the world while leaving a trail of small acts of awesomeness. This is my personal blog. Contact me at szwerink@gmail.com